Mona Maclean AKA Mona Lisa, Clinically Depressed, Bipolar, Evil Ex-Wife and Feminist Mona Marie Maclean with Chemical Imbalance Not For Female Voice Over.
Mona Maclean aka Mona Lisa, bipolar EX-WIFE, also Mona Marie Maclean and Mona Marie Walker. Evil and wicked Jekyll & Hyde feminist homewrecker with chemical imbalance and a ton of emotional baggage,
on antidepressants that raise my blood pressure. Researchers have found that commonly prescribed antidepressant medication can affect people's decision-making when choosing between whether to act selfishly or selflessly.
Combine this with my high-blood pressure which antidepressants CONTRIBUTE to, in addition to my sleep apnea, I DIVORCED my spouse of 11 years as a result,
granted to me at CHRISTMAS 2019 (12-4-19, just missing Pearl Harbor Day) after I SPAT in the face of God and filed for an uncontested divorce June 2019,
notifying spouse online via email! Joined by GOD as "one flesh" set aside, NOW relishing my "oneness", "independence", and SOLO journey through the rest of life without a care in the world,
PARTNERLESS when many people my age (60's) want a companion. Pandemic? What pandemic? DUH. I told my ex-spouse that no other WOMAN would've put up with him as long as I did NEVER stepping back to take a good long look at MYSELF FIRST in the MIRROR, much less ever THINKING before speaking FIRST (like always)!
I unashamedly "ex-spouse" CHRISTIANITY, yet ERASED spouse from my life like "Etch A Sketch" becoming my "INSIGNIFICANT OTHER", after getting him into a God AWFUL FIX
by conditioning, deceiving, verbally abusing, betraying, deserting, abandoning, and literally stranding him one year to the day before filing, resulting in him having to move at least 7 times in 3-years, even forcing him to live in his car!
This is nothing new for me, the CUCKOO out of the clock,
clinically depressed on meds compounded by ADHD and sleep apnea, following multiple attempts at taking my own life, was condescending to him while he endured my continual mood swings
plus couch potato binge watching and OVEREATING habits. I would even warn my spouse in advance of the potential side-effects of all of the different psychological medications I was taking.
I actually accused EX of gaslighting me, when the reality was my irrational behavior was all unprovoked and of MY OWN DOING, and spoke volumes to any eyewitness bystander.
Speaking with social security in their efforts to make lemonade from lemons, they told him that "at least she's not in your face anymore" (and with ice water for blood I would rather LIVE OUT A LIE IN DENIAL.)
Now ex-spouse's vision is impaired and is experiencing severe numbness in his extremities from latent MS triggered by all of the stress that I brought on him. Quoting from a medical journal; "dealing with a chronic illness like MS involves a wide range of emotions,
from sadness to fear to anger to loneliness and so many more. And this is without the added stress of friends, family, a partner or former spouse who may think you are exaggerating or using an MS diagnosis as an excuse to do less."
So do I feel for my ex-spouse? (STILL NOT). My clueless cyber family on FACEBOOK thinks I'm a sweetheart (what on earth would I do without my Smart Phone?), when truth be told I can't be trusted!
Meanwhile email shoot out ensues between MYSELF and my spouse, sizing up each other psychologically. I complain to my hot headed son,
provoking him to threaten my then spouse with physical violence in Florida (the same son that hated and disrespected me for much of his life, even told me to walk in front of a car among other things!) What was I thinking? My EX now lives a few miles from me
in a small old drafty dump of a house on a congested road, and either one of us could die tomorrow without the other even knowing about it! "I don't want to worry about anyone but myself, and don't want to have to cook, clean, and take care of you"
is what I most recently emailed to my EX. "There's no I in team" isn't even in my vocabulary. Figuratively speaking, my underhandedness is comparable to putting a gun to my ex-spouse's head and slowly squeezing the trigger!
Let this site serve as a permanent wake up call to random or orchestrated, irrational and destructive, shameful behavior like mine. That it's entirely avoidable by recognizing my condition and owning up to it.
I should not be allowing it to compromise my marriage, a sacred institution. I should also be avoiding anger which only begets more ANGER.
In reality, was I taking out my problems on my spouse? How much did my excessive PRIDE play a role? Pride caused me to assess my life by the standard of my accomplishments rather than my God given identity.
Pride severed me from God's design to live in relationship with others. I was pushed into isolation by my self-confidence believing the lie that life is better alone. Pride altered communication and connection.
It made it difficult for anyone to get close to me. My ability to be vulnerable, which is the primary way we show trust to each other, was compromised. Pride and vulnerability can't coexist.
Pride is demeaning other people or feeling an aversion to others. Instead of nurturing self-growth, I competed and wanted to defeat others. Stubborn pride prevented the growth of other virtues.
It became too uncomfortable to recognize my shortcomings or mistakes. Pride is often driven by poor self-worth and shame. I felt so badly about myself that I compensated by feeling superior.
I looked for my spouse's flaws as a way to conceal my own. I relished criticizing my spouse as a defense against recognizing my own shortcomings. I didn't give my spouse permission to point out pride in my life.
Pride deceived my mind. I didn't focus more on God than I did on myself. When pride was pointed out, my first reaction was not introspection. As if my pride wasn't damaging enough, now quoting from several articles,
"Many (like my EX) have found out the hard way that even after marriage their spouse (like ME) may fall short of their expectations. This is especially true if they (like my EX) married a person (like ME)
not intended for them or an immature spouse (like ME). If your spouse (like ME) does not try, know how to, or care about fulfilling emotional and physical needs for attention and companionship,
you (like my EX) may STILL suffer from loneliness. Even worse, hurt, distrust, and low self-esteem, etc, may result from a broken relationship. Add these with loneliness and you have an emotional wreck (like my EX).
On average, a third of divorced couples regret their decision to end their marriage (in which case, should I regret being ME?). People get back together with their ex-spouse all the time (little did I care to know?).
If they had been together for many years, they may find they had been through too much to leave it all behind after divorce (need to get on same page as my EX!). Men (like my EX) experience Spousal Divorce Syndrome more often than women.
SDS is caused by the stress and anxiety that is caused by going through a divorce, especially when one partner (like my EX) was unsure that the other partner (like ME) wanted to definitely dissolve the marriage (MY BAD!).
Should you (like my EX) talk to your ex (like ME) after divorce? (EX has SINCERELY attempted to many times!). The rule of thumb is to wait 30 days before you (like my EX) speak to your ex (like ME) once again.
If you were together for a very long time (15 YEARS) and you break up, you (like my EX) may need to extend this to six weeks (what's two more weeks to ME anyway?). At the most, 2-2.5 months is how long the no-contact phase should go
(HELLO, am I listening?). Can you stay friends after divorce? ( I DON'T KNOW HOW TO!) Remaining friendly is well within the realm of possibility for many. (what's a REALM? DUH). And committing to a baseline of amiability allows for
the chance of reestablishing a friendship at a later time (NOW'S THE TIME IF I CAN SNAP OUT OF IT!). Who regrets divorce more? (obviously not ME). There are many beliefs, myths and misconceptions which surround divorce,
one of which is who regrets divorce more, men (like my EX) or women (like ME? That's a laugh!). In a study conducted, 73 percent of women (like ME I guess!) reported having no regret over their divorce,
compared to 61 percent of men (like my EX), and nearly 70 percent of divorces are initiated by women (GUILTY AS CHARGED!). What is a toxic wife? (GAZE UPON WHAT WAS ME) In a toxic marriage, you're (like my EX)
seldom allowed to communicate your feelings, needs, and perspectives. And, in the rare instance that you're (like my EX) given a mic, their voice (like MINE) seeks to overpower yours. Your spouse (like ME) may belittle,
dismiss or scoff at any fair attempt to express yourself." (MEANING MY EX) I've been told that I only lose when I give up,
and my inclination has always been to GIVE UP!
So much for my faith in GOD. Meanwhile my mother died.
To my EX: "I'm driving to Texas before long because my mother died and I'm meeting with my brothers. And I'll be returning with, among other things,
one of my Dad's guns, just so you know. It's not a threat, just information. I don't want to be anywhere near you." NOT A THREAT??? (Should I load my gun with silver bullets?)
Therefore, not offering female voice over at affordable female voice over rates.
SO FLEE FROM ME WHEN THE MOON IS FULL instead of female voice over...BUT THEN I COULD JUST HOP ON MY BROOMSTICK AND COME AFTER YOU...
"Am I Scary or What?"
"Am I Scary or What?"